Wednesday, May 8, 2013

On Fitting In [a mommy rant]

I've been wondering lately why I feel like I don't fit anywhere. I feel like the habits I create for myself set me apart from everyone. I can't nail down my clothing style, I don't have a way that like to wear my hair, nothing feels comfortable. Then today I heard a quote from about values that you once had not always fitting your life. There comes a time when you have to change and adapt to what is now important. They went on to say that when that happens you probably will get very uncomfortable because nothing seems to "fit" and I thought "BINGO!" this is me.

As someone who has studied and majored in the practice of Social Work, I understand the value of seeking out counseling and having those services available. That being said, lately I've been seeing a counselor of my own. She's helped me to recognize that there are a lot of things about me that I want to be different, and ultimately I'm the only person holding myself back. For example I'd love to use my brain more, take a class, and be creative.
I'm quite certain there's an entire hemisphere up there turning to mush.

Along with caring for my family, I also need to care for me. What a concept, huh? In fact it's imperative that I be functioning, and well. Gone are the days of calling in sick, or anyone giving a shit if I am for that matter. It's important to remember that self-care is just as or more important than caring for others. I thrive on being able to help other people, it makes me happy, it makes me tick, but I often forget to at least take care of my own basic needs. Case-in-point: I was just making smoothies for my husband and my sons; he was going to take them rollerblading and by "take them rollerblading" I, of course, mean push them in the stroller while wearing Rollerblades which, by the way, were only $3.00 at a garage sale- score! but regarding the smoothies that I mentioned... I made one for my husband and one for each my sons and then I realized "hey! there's none for me!" which I quickly fixed by doing some liquid-in-glasses-juggling but it simply proves my point that I don't do for me. But I'm going to! At least I think I am. After all: If not me, who? If not now, when?

SO all of this is a very round-a-bout way of saying I HAVE A NEW GOAL! Which I love, also, having tons going on is easy for me to juggle, it's the slow slum that gets me down. Can ya believe it?

And the new goal is, drum roll please: take a class! A.K.A: use. my. BRAIN! I've always wanted to take a cake decorating class. Ever since I went to church camp in elementary school and decorated a mini cake with a professional I thought it would be SO FUN! I've signed up at JoAnn Fabrics, getting started is the first step and biggest step, and it starts in June. I'll keep you posted on my progress!

What goals have you set lately? Are you currently working toward them?




  1. I can totally relate to the clothes and hairstyle struggles! I feel like I am trying to "find" myself after years of focusing on my family. One goal I am working on is to take care of myself better by exercising regularly. I started going to an exercise class at a local church to help keep me accountable and I try to walk on the days I don't have class.
    Have fun with your cake decorating class! I took one years ago and would love to do it again.

  2. my goal is to stop working... and concentrate on my children. spend more time with the family and take care of my health. phew

    1. That's a big but DOABLE goal Kate! Good for you! :)

  3. I'm so excited to see how this goes for you! Taking a cake decorating class has been on my bucket list for years but I haven't done it because I feel weird doing things like that alone...dumb, I know. Hope you have fun!


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