This post is all about why it's okay to "let your blog go", to not use your Bachelor's degree, and to live a little bit off the grid, or not how people expect you to, or not the way someone may have intended for you to live. At least for a while.
For example. If I were using my Bachelor's degree that means I would not be a full-time stay-at-home mom. If I was not a full-time stay-at-home mom that means I would not have the time that I have to devote to regain my health, take back my body, care for my children, and ultimately pursue things that are important to me, important for my life and my well-being, as well as important for my children's + family's future.
If I were living "on the grid" or completely connected in some technological way then what ways would I be disconnected from myself and my family? Some people are excellent multitaskers, and at times I can be, too. This is not one of those times. I find the more I disengage with Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest, texting, and whatever other social suckholes exist, the better my relationship becomes with my husband + kids. Go figure, right?But blogging makes me happy, so I try to find a nice balance, and that's not always an easy feat.
I don't know that I'll be in that position forever. Hopefully I will create wonderful health, exercise, and mental wellness habits for myself. I probably will not always have the luxury of being a stay-at-home mom. One can dream, right? Someday I will stop feeding hungry mouths at the table. And someday those hungry mouths will hopefully be successful people all in their own. So when that time comes I hope that I can look back and be proud of the way I'm spending my time now.
This time, right now, is a gift. I hope for Taylen, Dayr, Ayara, Bob, and my own sake that I'm always able to view it that way.
I -- honest to goodness -- relate to every word in this post. Thank for your giving a voice to something that's been on my mind so much lately. <3 You are wonderful. The blogging world is lucky to have you & your family is even luckier. xo
ReplyDeleteDena, once again your written words are so comforting and gentle. Thanks for being a bright spot in my day!
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